Happily Ever After--Not

The new "It" couple.

Hollywood marriages make me think of those bug zappers. Here are all the bugs impulsively drawn to this bright, warm image, and even as they are being sucked into its aura, they can see their fellow buggies dropping, literally, like flies one after the other, sometimes 5 or more at a time, struck down by the deadly zap. Yet, you can bet that if the first encounter didn't get them, they're on the ground on their backs, shaking off the stun and struggling to get back on their feet so they can once again make that pilgrimage back up to the light.

Dumb bugs.

What's In A Name?

I wonder what it's like having a name like Theodora? Would you be constantly haunted by self-doubt about whether your parents really loved you?

"Oh no, we always wanted a girl, Ted! How could you even ask such a question?"

Speaking of sadistic parents, I came across a guy whose name is Harold Bottom. I wonder if he goes by Harry?

"Don't be ridiculous, Maude. It's funny and it'll build character!"

Like the boy named Sue.

Out of the Mouth of Babes

"Now, can you play with me?"

"Babe, I just got off work. It's late. I'm tired. I know you don't understand that concept, having never expierenced it, but I just don't have the energy right now."

"Why? Just for a little while. Please?"

(Dave) "Mommies and Daddies don't have the energy that you have, Vaughn. You're a kid. You have lots of energy. We just don't have that kind of energy."

"Then why did you make one?"

"Why did we make one what?"

"A kid."

"Why do you say that?"

"Why did you make a kid if you don't have the energy to play with them?"

"Good point. Very good point."

Ouch

Thanksgiving

So Thanksgiving has almost passed once again for the year. Met up with the family for a bit. Feeling a little empty. Can't quite explain it, except that I am literally empty because the food tasted like crap. I absolutely hate it when we go to a restaurant for the holidays, and Shari's, no less. Woohoo! Really going all out there. What? No Denny's? Can someone please tell me how it is possible to screw up mashed potatoes, without actually burning them, of course? I mean, what one would think of as absolutely can't-go-wrong food, and it tasted like plastic. The turkey was rubbery, the potatoes watery, and I can't even begin to describe the dressing that was buried underneath all that slop. Ugh.

Nevertheless, we took a whole buttload of it home because of that wholly inexplicable knee-jerk reaction that overtakes one at a restaurant when you're leaving a half-full plate of food. What is that? Does everyone suffer from that? You have a half-full plate of food because it tasted like dog shit, and then you ask for a "doggie bag." Actually, come to think it, it's rather appropriate isn't it? Isn't there some kind of fine if you don't pick up your dog's shit? Wow, I'm actually performing a public service. Now, excuse while I go clear out some space in my fridge.

Happy Turkey Day

Hope you have a wonderful day stuffing your gizzard. You murderer, you.

That is one big baby

Now that is one big baby!

His mother. Now wouldn't you like to have a little elf like that do your hair too?

Baby all grown up.

Imagine buying the shoes for this kid. I thought having to buy Vaughn's at Stride Rite was bad!

His dad's face at the delivery. Yeah, YOU did that. Be afraid. Be very afraid.

Well, he just fell asleep and the rest is history.








































Actually all of these are sculptures (if you can believe it) from the Richard Mueck exhibition. Wild, awesome, cool, and just a wee bit creepy.

Oh, Sally

Every Sunday night is Movie Night, and I am the designated movie picker. Well, this last Sunday, not yesterday Sunday but the Sunday before, I picked out the newly released "Cars." We didn't bother seeing it at the movies because after a few times of spending an obscene amount of money only to spend the next 2 hours grinding our teeth and clutching the armrests next to a maniacally hyper and supernaturally active 4-year-old we decided Movie Night was best spent in-house.

I had no idea whether Vaughn would like "Cars," considering he starts squawking once he hears there aren't any trains in it, but I have begun to leave his preferences out of my decision-making process because frankly, they only make so many movies for 4-year-olds about trains or with trains and about 85% of those are unwatchable.

Anyway, long story short, he is now obsessed with race cars. Oh, he hasn't given up trains, but now I get to have the lovely ambient sounds of him racing frantically through the house while I’m downstairs trying to decipher a doctor’s mangled mumbling. Vaughn’s energy level is something the car manufacturers should really analyze. I think we would be independent of oil within the next year. Just strap a bunch of preschoolers to the bumper and “up yours, Saudi Arabia.”

Vaughn was still going at it around 8 last night, whipping around the corners of the house, making a circuitous route through all 4 rooms in his own personal Indie 500. He told me he was racing the Naughty Vaughn (also known as Mean Vaughn). Now, I don’t know if it’s healthy for a 4-year-old to have an alter ego or if this is the early manifestations of schizophrenia rearing its ugly head, but when I wake up in the middle of the night and see the Mean Vaughn standing over us with an axe, I’ll know to worry.

Babe

I really want a pot belly pig. We took Vaughn to the Holiday Kidfest this last weekend. This was the first time we’ve gone, and I must admit, I was a little disappointed. It did not live up to my expectations, but then again, things rarely do. I’m an idealist, you know? But, frankly, really. If you’re going to call something Kidfest!!! one infers a certain festival-like excitement in store. Instead, it was just a large gymnasium with a lot of out of work clowns hawking their wares, trying to look excited about doing the millionth balloon hat for one of Satan’s little minions, a preschooler.

Anyway, they had a petting zoo there, which cost money, of course, (not all were out of work). I use the term “petting” here loosely because it basically entailed having to pay an additional buck or so to get the cone with farm animal Kibbles and Bits to even get close to the animals. They had a barred fence between the animals and the kids (probably a smart litigious protection, but not as fun), so the animals wouldn’t give you the time of day unless you had something for them, and then you could only get close to the big ugly ones that managed to bully their way to the front. Vaughn seemed to enjoy himself, though, with the exception of when he started crying inexplicably and I stupidly thought he was upset because one of the thug goats had muscled his way in front of a little lamb and got a chunk of cone. I finally got him calmed down enough to enable me to translate the blubbereeze (a mccoyism. Definition: the coughs, spits and gags heard in between sobs that serves as a means of communication), that he wasn’t upset about the injustice of the food distribution. No, he was upset because HE wanted the cone. Ah, of course. Stupid me, expecting empathy for animals from a child who literally scares the piss and poop out of our cat. (ah, you know I love him)

Back to the pot belly pig. So there was this little pot belly pig in the corner of the enclosure in his own personal pen (I don’t know. I guess pigs don’t play well with sheep.) who was getting completely ignored. I have not had any particular affinity for pigs in the past, and was roundly disgusted with the whole pot belly pig fad back in the _____ (was it 80s? 90s?), but even I was feeling a little for the guy. I didn’t even think of giving him any food because, once again, stupidly I thought this was uniquely goat and sheep cuisine. It was only after the food was gone, and I saw the pig frantically trying to get some that I had the epiphany that pigs eat EVERYTHING. Anyway, because of the pig’s obvious deficits in the cute and cuddly department, Vaughn and the rest of the kids didn’t have any particular interest in petting the little guy. I suppose it was all that and then the little wet nose and soulful look in the eyes that created this sudden impulse to want to go out and buy a pig. I shared this newly formed enthusiasm with Dave, extolling the virtues of a pig over a dog, who just looked at me and shook his head and got that painfully patient look on his face that he always gets when I have one of my inspirations.

I’m going to get me a pig.

Eight is the loneliest number

Eight. Eight!! Eight views of my profile. Am I just that pathetic? That boring? I need to put up something more titilating, I guess. I need to pimp up my blog or something. That's just sad. So, so sad.

Serendipity

Ah, it's cosmic destiny. I was up on the treadmill just thinking about how I should get back to blogging, except for the fact that I have not felt any inspiration of late (well of the last 3 months) to blog about. I think that's a commentary on 2 things: that I need to get out more and I'm a mediocre writer because good writers can write about nothing and make it sound like something.

Anyhoo, I was looking up a coffee place in the Pearl District (yet another fantasy of a place that I think I will take Vaughn and yet never will because it actually requires me to venture more than 3 miles from my house). I googled it and low and behold someone had blogged about it on Blogger, so here I am. Now that's exciting!

Well, I did have one thing happen that I suppose would be considered a big thing. My nephew was stabbed 7 times and came very close to dying. A long story with sordid details that I'm sure would be considered salacious (do blogs have sweeps weeks?), but since I still haven’t decided who I’m actually going to invite to my blog at any given moment (so far no one), I really would rather not go into a blow-by-blow, so to speak. Suffice it to say that some good things came out of it--bringing the family closer together, at least at the moment, and the confirmation that I truly suck in crisis situations. God forbid anything happens to Vaughn because I would be babbling for the first hour or so of the critical event. With this realization, I can no longer be left alone with Vaughn. *snicker*

So that’s the big update. I’m still debating the idea of connecting this blog with myspace, but now with the big incident involving my nephew, I have discovered that I have yet more of my family on there; so frankly, I’m just not sure how well I want my family to know me. Now strangers, that’s entirely a different thing.

Tuesdays with Morrie

My husband and I have been watching the Last Comic Standing (I know. Our lives are pathetic.) and it got me to thinking. Is it a foregone conclusion that all people that have a horrible disease or illness befall them become more enlightened than the rest of us? I was thinking about how I would deal with having MS or cerebral palsy or cancer or take your pick. Would I suddenly be struck with a sudden sense of meaning and understanding of life? I wonder if anyone has done a study on this. What percentage of people that have some disabling illnesses are profoundly optimistic and suddenly become "centered," as it were, and aware of what is truly meaningful?

Somehow I don't think I would go through this metamorphosis. If anything, I would probably become more bitter, cursing a God I don't believe in and wanting my life to end quickly and painlessly. Oh well. Something to think about. By the way, I found the book Tuesdays With Morrie annoying, sappy and never finished it. The profundity spouted by Morrie was trite and would only be considered deep by someone who had never done any self-analysis whatsoever (such as the author, evidently).

PS: I am feeling much better. Finally found the perfect antidepressant combination. I no longer want to pummel my child or fantasize about a semi flattening me. *Kidding*

Kodak Moments

Is there anyone else who hates motherhood as much as I do, I mean, with the exception of the crack whore who finds herself in the family way? These days I find the only way I can truly enjoy my son is through pictures. Pictures are such great things, aren’t they? I mean, the experience could have been something awful, but a few cheerful moments captured on film is all we need to manufacture a whole new reality, a whole new false memory that gives us pleasant thoughts about the event after we’ve gotten over the trauma of it. We don’t usually photograph the child thrashing on the ground in a grand mal tantrum. We’re too busy trying to avoid the flailing appendages. Besides, who wants that in their photo album? No, we want the cute, albeit phony, pose that shows our child grinning from ear to ear, even if we had to launch a thousand threats to get that “precious moment.”

The Hawaii Experiment (as it has come to be known) was honestly a truly horrendous exercise in human torture, but I look back at the pictures, and I’m awash with all these warm fuzzy feelings of sentimentality, actually dreaming about when we can return. Yes, the memories are still there of our first night with Vaughn scream-whining in the bathtub for literally hours (well, not all the time in the bathtub), begging us to go back home, the echoes amplified by the bathroom acoustics and traveling up and down the hallway of the hotel for our fellow lodgers’ listening pleasure. And that was the FIRST day. We were there for 6 days and (lest us not forget) NIGHTS and MORNINGS. But the pictures. Ah, the pictures. Set a little James Blunt to the slideshow and you’ve got yourself a truly beautifully fabricated memory of warm sun (it was overcast the majority of the time, with side dishes of rain), water frolicking (until it literally made me seasick), and joyful faces (which the next minute had brows furrowed [mine] or scrunched up ready to launch into one of many whinefests [Vaughn’s]). *sigh* Memories.

Springing ahead

I didn’t do my usual crabbing about the time change this season (even though this is my most hated one. There is absolutely nothing worse than “losing an hour,” especially of sleep.). For one thing, it gets a bit redundant, and for another, I actually, for once did not have the difficulty with it that I usually do. Of course, it helped a lot that my son went into this weird hibernation mode and starting sleeping in until 9 for a few days. My God, that has GOT to be some kind of record. Now he’s back to his chirpy 6:30. I loathe morning people. Well, except my son, of course.

This is the first year that I have actually started swapping out wardrobe for the seasons. Uncharacteristically organized of me, I know, but hey, baby steps. I have concluded a few things from this exercise:

1. I am way too far in debt due to manic purchases of clothing for me and my son. My poor husband gets the short end of the stick on this one.

2. There is something to be said for having 2 or 3 rotating outfits, which is my husband’s creed; hence, why he has not benefited from my clothing expenditures.

3. I have added yet another pro to my list of reasons to move to a static tropical climate. Frankly, I do not enjoy the changing of the seasons and would be quite content to forever live in eternal sunshine and the warmth of summer. It’s the kind of monotony I could thoroughly enjoy.

4. Bottom line: Rotating clothing every season is a pain in the ass.

Mangled Monikers

Okay, I just have to vent here about people giving their children weirdass spellings for ordinary names. This is one of my greatest pet peeves, especially given my occupation. I hate, absolutely hate having to verify spellings on names like Alexandra, Kira, Karen, Steve, Robert, Bill, George, etc., but I HAVE to because you have these idiot parents that don't have the balls to actually name their child something unique, so instead, they give them a boring, common name and give it a "unique" spelling, so that the poor kid is forever having to go through life spelling David. "That's David with a D-e-a-v-y-y-d-d." Unfortunately, I am not exaggerating here. I came across a woman who was very "creative" in naming her kids; that is, with the spellings, not the names--Elexzendryia, Korbin, Caydence, and Hayleigh. I think this woman should get a special place in Hell just for the Elexzendryia name. Even if the child wants to shorten the name and go by the nickname, she will be constantly spelling it--"No, not Alex. Elex." Yeah, but sounds the same. Jeez.

Oh, and then there are some spellings that are so odd that you know when someone sees it spelled they're going to totally mutilate the pronunciation because they don't recognize that Alyszandra is just Alexandra.

You know, I think it's been worse just this last generation, too. Perhaps, I'm completely misreading (no pun intended) the situation. Maybe it's just a product of our very deteriorating public school system: These parents just don't know how to spell or they were taught that spelling is subjective. Or maybe pop culture is to blame for adding a "y" in place of every "i" and a "z" in place of every "s" just to add that extra pizzazz!!! Or is it pysass. Or pissass. I mean Byll is just ever so much more hip than plain old Bill! Never mind the fact that unless you see it written, the kid is still Bill.

This whole epidemic of "original" spelling of children's names is the epitome of narcissism, and I think there should be a penalty for this child abuse (because it is abuse. Would you want to constantly have to spell the name Donna for people? Never mind the fact that you know their name is always going to be misspelled on just about every written material they receive for which they were not personally there to verify the spelling). I haven't quite come up with an appropriate punishment yet, other than burning in Hell for the next 1000 years, which might be a tad harsh (assuming there is a Hell). The best alternative I can come up with right now is that the parents should be "pounded" (as my son puts it, courtesy Charlie Brown) by the victim of this selfishness each and every time the child has to spell their uniquely common name.

So here is my final comment to these imaginative and original parents on the subject of distinctively ordinary christenings: The only thing that's going to be exceptional about your child's name to other people is that it's going to be exceptionally annoying because they are never going to know how to spell what is otherwise a commonplace name. Inuf sayd.

Bad Boys, Bad Boys

Vaughn had his first trip to Chuck E. Cheese today. We went with Party Girl and her daughter. It almost looked like it wasn’t going to happen because Party Girl’s daughter evidently has issues with the big mouse. When we pulled into the parking lot, she started having a panic attack, jabbering on about all the unimaginable things the giant furry rodent would do to her. We basically dragged her kicking and screaming into the place (yes, we’re of the compassionate parenting philosophy), with Party Girl promising her that she would perform scout duties in our covert operation to spot the mouse. Having given the all clear, we proceeded to pay for our meals. Of course, right after having done this, the big rat showed his grotesquely huge head and Party Girl had to be defense, blocking his approach as we weaved and dodged our way to a table. He did finally leave after making his short obligatory appearance, and things went fairly smoothly after that. A good time was had by all, with the exception of the fact that just before we left my son apparently bitch-slapped Party Girl’s daughter. She had this big red mark on her cheek with a complimentary scratch (because I’m too darn lazy to keep my son’s nails trimmed). Fortunately, Party Girl was pretty cool about it. I felt mortified that my son is evidently developing into a future wife-beater. On the way home, I asked him why he did it. Of course, then it comes out that she smacked him first, which is probably true. I was wondering why she seemed so nonchalant about this big red mark on her cheek. Anyway, we’ll see if we get invited to any more “play dates.”

The Next Mozart?

Vaughn, of late, has really showed little interest in pursuing a future in music, being primarily concerned with conducting trains, engineering train landscapes and becoming a kitty when he grows up. He still sings when he's playing and likes listening to music, but doesn't really show much interest beyond that. Both being musicians, we have decided not to push it. My husband believes if one has a passion for it, then one will pursue it on one's own with no coercion. I'm more of a mind to induce the passion, but thus far, keeping with my current apathy, have really done nothing to influence him. Okay, he's enrolled in one "music" class, but it's once a week for 45 minutes and to call it a music class is really stretching the definition of music. It pretty much entails a bunch of preschoolers running around with scarves singing some ditty hastily composed by the teacher.

Well, yesterday, when I was downstairs working, I could hearing vigorous pounding of the piano up above, which isn't that unusual. Vaughn usually likes to use it to punctuate his mood or periodic outburst. My husban told me later that Vaugh was looking at his (my husband's) music and asked what the treble clef was. My husband told him, and then Vaughn wanted my husband to draw one. So my husband got some music paper and started to draw one, but Vaughn then insisted that he could do it. He then evidently scratched out a few other things and then proceeded to perform his "compositions." As I understand it, he's quite prolific and composed 2 or 3 within 10 minutes. I believe the first one was titled "Boats on the Water," and the second one, predictably, had something about a train in the title. I'm not sure what the third one was. My husband said he performed them with feeling and dynamics with good articulation of his fingers. Unfortunately, much to my dismay, they were purely instrumental, but it's a start.

I'm still kicking Dave for not grabbing the videocamera.

Mundane

I have been totally uninspired lately and thus have had very little to say. I'm going through one of my periodic funks again and feel bored and restless with my life. I have no idea what precipitates these episodes. I feel in great need of a change. A BIG change. When anybody asks what's new, I can honestly say, "Absolutely nothing." There lies the problem. I have nothing happening in my life. Zilch. Everyday is the same walk on the treadmill. I've heard people say that the only reason a person has to be bored is because they are boring. I confess: I'm guilty. I'm wallowing in a puddle of my own apathy to the point of drowning.

Is That All There Is?

Oh, wallowing in melancholy. Probably the result of too much leftover whiskey from St. Patty's. Feeling meaningless and very unpithy. I wish I had the guts to make a change and do something drastic. I absolutely abhor the grey of the Northwest. Always have. It's too accommodating to my mood. Well, thought I'd brighten your day.

Big Brother?

My friend the Party Girl told me she is finally pregnant with number 2 son/daughter. Shortly after I first met her, I knew they had plans of trying that year. That was probably over 2 years ago. I had kind of lulled myself into believing perhaps I would have company in being an onlie's mother. I have to admit. I had about 2 minutes of disappointment and depression. It more or less passed. However, I have been thinking about this more and more lately. I am, of course, certifiably crazy. My husband is not opposed to the idea, but thinks I'm delusional. Besides the fact that this is probably not my choice anyway. I haven't been on contraceptives for about 2-3 years now. Not that we have sex enough to actually make this a viable fact (my husband reminds me daily). I think he isn't opposed to the idea for the very reason that it means more nookie.

Vaughn thinks nobody likes him because "I don't have a brother or sister." God knows where this is coming from. I'm starting to look at babies longingly, but not in the way you think. Longingly as in "God, I so wish Vaughn were that size again and couldn't talk or have opinions."

All the reasons for having another one are just completely wrong, but of course, this doesn't keep me from seriously entertaining the idea of buying a ovulation predictor on Ebay and seeing if I can actually get pregnant.

I need to be institutionalized.

This Makes It All Worth It

Ah, that day has finally come. My son told me today he didn't love me, twice. Yep. These are those fuzzy warm moments that make you realize it was totally worth the 9 months of heartburn, constipation and hemorrhoids, 24-plus-hour labor, several hours of pushing, countless nights of sleeplessness, dirty diapers and spit up, mastitis, the extra 10 postpartum pounds, premature sagging breasts, and permanent flabby belly and downunder damage. Ah, ain't parenting grand?