Mini-Me Not

I read time and time again how parents supposedly want their children to be little mirror images of themselves. First off, I don't know how accurate this statement is. I think parents want children that are like themselves in that they can understand them. Or perhaps people want their children to be the best of themselves, if that makes any sense. Themselves idealized. I mean, really. Do you really want a little mini-you? I don't. Maybe a mini-new-and-improved me. Or a mini-the-best-parts-of-me-but-none-of-the-bad. Probably the aspects of Vaughn I dislike the most are the mirrored parts of me--the nail-biting, temperamental, easily frustrated, mercurial, moody, hyper-sensitive, oh God, I could go on. I see those parts of myself, and I find them most disturbing. I feel no pride in thinking, "That's MY boy." However, there are obviously those parts that I can't relate to. That I don't understand fully. I'm not sure which I find more frustrating. Probably the warped reflection, if it is warped. I like to think it's warped, but maybe that's the most disturbing thing of all. It's not as warped as I'd like it to be. Perhaps it's too crystal clear. I want my son to be wholly different from me or the best me, and unfortunately, he only has me and his father as his examples, and who do you think he's going to relate to the most? I am fighting my shadow.